Four Years

Les Pivoines

Four years ago today, an unemployed, bored, and creatively-unfulfilled girl started a blog as a means of shopping-aversion therapy. “Maybe,” she thought, “if I write about all the things I like, want, or need to buy but can’t afford, I’ll exhaust my desire for them. Now, what on earth would I call such a blog?”

(It’s me. I’m talking about myself in the third person.)

Four years ago, that girl was barely eight months into a relationship with the man who would later become her husband, and she didn’t know then that she would get to document their engagement or wedding for a community of friends (both online and off). Four years ago, that struggling girl could never have known she’d one day move to Paris to write a novel; if you’d told her there was that sort of the brilliant light at the end of the tunnel, she would have scoffed, adjusted her sweatpants, and started another marathon of America’s Next Top Model, a show she, in unemployed desperation, had auditioned for just a year prior. An experience that, while amazingly rich in lols, did nothing for her bank account or resume.

Four years ago, that girl moved in with her boyfriend over the summer and together they got way in over their heads and adopted a wily, lovable, lunatic-wrapped-in-fur named Fitz. Proving that nothing really changes and also that his Prozac does nothing for him, this morning he whined at a parked car because he didn’t like the roof rack. He is, however, my most trusted editorial sounding board. “Fitz,” I’ll often say to him because who doesn’t anthropomorphize their pets, “what should Mommy blog about today?” To which he’ll roll right over and distract me with his little belly and imploring eyes.

In four years, my tastes in interiors and music haven’t changed, and neither has my Francophilia, but I’ve made an effort to expand my horizons. Four years ago I never would have dreamed I’d honeymoon in Santorini and like it (sun! not-Paris!), but I did. Correction: I loved it. (I’m expecting nothing less from Italy in a few months.)

In four years of blogging here I’ve learned a few things along the way: I’m comfortable coding in CSS now, and I’m comfortable not blogging every single day. I’ve hit the sweet spot with two or three posts per week, but it took a while to get over the initial self-imposed stress and guilt on the days when I didn’t post something. I hope you kiddos don’t mind too much; I’d rather post when I truly have something to say and feel inspired to share, rather than post for posting’s sake.

I don’t know if I have another four years of blogging in me, to be honest. In four years I’ll be 32 (WEEPING. WEEPING OPENLY.) and might even have a kiddo of my own then and lack the sufficient time or energy to craft such groundbreaking posts as Gary Oldman in Paris. Who knows. But this will always be my favorite side-project. I’ve met so many incredible, and incredibly supportive, people in the last four years, including my first ever blog friend, Annie, whose birthday is today! Happy birthday, darling! Yes, in a delightfully serendipitous twist, my first blog friend and my blog share a birthday. Annie and I have hung out in New York and Paris together, something that never would have happened if not for this blog.

Avenue de l'Opera

I’m wildly grateful for your friendship and comments here every day, you guys. Thank you for making this blog what it is. And now, if you’ll excuse me, I must go indulge myself in some macarons and 80s boyband music to celebrate.

33 thoughts on “Four Years

  1. happy birthday l/w/n!!! it is so very amazing to think about where we were 4 years ago and how we had NO idea where w’d be today. it’s quite wonderful, bc i think our 4-year-younger selves would be very proud to see us today. they might even look up to us? i’d like to think so. so happy that you’re here, bc otherwise i wouldnt’t know you. xo.

    1. I like to think that my 23/24 year old self would be pretty happy with the way things panned out for her, yes! I’m happy you started a blog, too, m’dear. It’s all so serendipitous! xo

  2. Happy 4th birthday! You sure have packed a lot into those four years :)
    Thanks for sharing snippets of your life and taking all those beautiful photos that make me keep visiting again and again!

    1. Ha, it certainly feels that way when I list all the major milestones out in one post, huh? I guess it has been quite a jam-packed four years! Thank you so much for your sweet words and for reading here, Lauren! xo

  3. Happy blog birthday! I’ve loved seeing your blog grow and blossom over time and also seeing how your life is developing. I know what you mean about “four years from now” but who knows what time will bring. Until then, I’ll continue to read and enjoy, as long as you continue to write and enjoy

    1. Thanks so much! “Write and enjoy.” That’s a wonderful life motto, girl, whether or not you intended it that way. I think the moment you stop enjoying something, it’s time to pack it up, you know? I’d hate to feel tethered to this blog in any way if my heart was no longer in it (hopefully a very, very distant hypothetical!), and I’d hate to keep you guys hanging around here for no reason. Oh well, no need to worry about that today!! xo

  4. yeah, happy anniversary. it’s insane what blogging can do to and for your life, no. to another four years. I’m sure you got it in you. xoxoxo

    1. Thanks, lovely. Will you still be blogging in four years, do you think? It sounds so far away in the future, but if the last four years have taught me anything, they sneak up on you with scary speed! xo

  5. woot-woot! congratualtions, erin! i love following those links back to earlier posts and realizing just how much you have experienced and grown over four years. i’m so glad that i found your space and that we have formed this wonderful little community. here’s to many more! xo

    1. It does seem like quite a lot has happened to/for me in the last four years, right? It sounds like a small number, but I realized after writing this post just how much has happened in those four short years. High school felt longer, somehow. ;) Thank you so much for all of your endless support and friendship. I do love our “wonderful little community” as you so rightly named it. So happy to have found you! xo

    1. Ooh, it would inflate his ego SO much if I indulged him in his frequent, “I’m ready for my close-up!”-begging :) Thank you so much, G! So happy to know you. xo

  6. 4 ans déjà ! Bravo Erin ! Même si je connais pas ton blog de son début, je suis très fière de l’avoir découvert et j’espère que tu va continuer encore et encore ! on se lâche pas !
    Félicitations mon choux ;)

    1. Merci, mon amie!! 4 ans deja, oui! Je ne le crois pas, Eva. Ils sont allés trop rapide. Je suis heuruese que nous avons rencontre, j’adore ton blog! xo

    1. Thank you, Zanna! It goes faster than you realize, don’t worry. You’ll be celebrating your blogaversary sooner than you think! xo

  7. Happy (belated) blogaversary! I missed the America’s top model post. That is too much! It’s really hard for me to picture you doing that, but I really like knowing that you did. I love having insight into those things. Those questions, oy!

    And take it from me, blogging when you have kids can be a good thing!! So I hope there’s many more years to come. xoxo

    1. It was a dark, strange period of my life, haha, that’s my only excuse! I was despairingly unemployed and I really, really loved ANTM. I should’ve applied when I was much younger though, it would have been a totally different experience. At least I have a good story out of it, though!

      I do look to you as my inspiration for when I have a (future) kiddo. I know that you have found blogging to even be a relief even from your coursework, so I know blogging will serve different purposes for me when I need it to. Thank you for being you! xo

  8. I’ve just discovered your blog in recent months but enjoy reading your blog. Please keep writing!! Too funny about ANTM :) When desperate for work, I nearly applied for a mascot job off of Craigslist, but got called in for an office temp job just in time.

    1. Thank you, Vanessa!! That’s so sweet of you. I have no immediate plans to stop writing, don’t worry :) I’d say that temp job saved you from a very unfortunate experience! Now I’m curious to know what sort of mascot you would’ve had to dress up as. xo

    1. That’s so kind, Valerie! I’m so happy you found me so that I, in turn, could find your gorgeous blog. xo

  9. Hey Erin,

    Congrats on 4 years! I stumbled on your blog a few days ago whilst searching something about French style and I loved what I saw – your photos are gorgeous and I love your writing; you write with such sincerity and also have me laughing out loud… ANTM is totally my guilty pleasure, so I really enjoyed reading about your audition; although sorry it was such a mess! I hope you continue to blog, and if you don’t I will enjoy catching up on the 4 years of content I missed! :)


    1. Hello, Renee! What a sweet comment. Welcome! So happy you found me :) And by searching for French style, no less! It flatters me to no end to know my blog is anywhere in the search results for that, haha. ANTM used to be my guilty pleasure show, too, but I confess I haven’t watched it in years. I think I dropped out around season 13? 15? I can’t remember. But I LOVED the earlier seasons, and will still happily binge watch them whenever they have marathons. Don’t tell anyone ;)
      I’ll absolutely be blogging for some time to come, don’t worry. And now I have to check out your blog, too! (love the name, from one Francophile to another!). xo

  10. Quatre ans?!?!? I can’t believe it’s been that long. This also marks the anniversary with your employer. ;)

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